Imagined Perspective

*sneers at the rain* The weekend was loooooooooooong. 
On the plus side at Old CLifton Days I found old copies of the AD Police Files I elnt out in HS and never got back. 
Carla and I worked a bit this weekend also watched the above, The Immortal (weeeiiiiiirder the 2nd time viewed), and went to the movies and watched hte Covenant. 
Tehehe.... That was so cheesy.... We float we float we throw stupid plasma-esq balls..... 
But still the car scene is ker-awesome-ness!
Hrm... Still reading the empire series slowly. (Finished Daughter of the Empire, have 100 pages to go in Servent of the Empire but reading it in my free time) Will get to Mistress of the Empire by end of week at least. 
I wanna check out Licky Number Slevin and re-watch it, and Sin City, I think I'm in a Brucey mood. I have Fifth Element to tide me over though... 
Finished DC for Carla... 
Humhumhumhumhumhumhum....

Cute, very short, nice quotes. 
I love Quotes.

I spent the day working and got a chunk of pages done. Yay. VP is beautiful. Carla's latest work makes me weep (in joy for once). ^_~
Watched some TV (House and Standoff) 
DARSHAY is fiiiiixed! 
YAY! 
That means this weekend - Go get Dirge of Cerebus, go get SB, and go to Old Clifton Days...
Go see some movies....
And have a nice dinner....
Then work our booties off cause we took the weekend off..
Carla's being paid $400 for 3 pieces of her artwork, a small one of a pretty girl, a medium sized one of a woman swinging in a garden, and and long one of an angel featuring a poem of mine. $400! 
They're gonna be lovely, hurrah for comissions. 
Especially comissions that combine her art and my writing.

Hurray for the lost years, 40 letters and counting. WOOOO!

Went grocery shopping at 7 am today. Yaaaaaaaaaawwwwn. I'm tired. 
We never actually went to sleep last night. 
No sleep plus shopping = deakjackalope
Worked a bit today, want to nap. 
Work lots. 
RPG letter writing w/ carla at work is fun. 
She averages a letter per break which is cool. 
Very fun way to pass the day. 
I'm so crashing. 
Champagne Grapes are delicious miniture grapes, go buy some and eat them, they're divine.

Which FF Character Are You? 

Squee.

I relaly like cute little rebel groups, whether it's Newsies protesting things through fun dance or gorgous, beautiful, and tragic schoolboys giving their lives for a chance at a better life for a people beneath them..... (*wipes away a tear*) 
I love Les Miserables, although I am actually kinda dissapointed in both the novel and the musical not having enough to do with the barricade boys.... 
Quite frankely, (and it's sad but true) I only love it for Jarvert and the boys, that's it. 
ValJean is cool but... After you've heard the thing multiple thousand times he's a bit annoying and Cosette is just.... Blagh. 
Marius in the musical is a dip. *SIGH* In the book he was so ..... Incredibly motivated, and in the musical he was a whiney little boy. (I have the opposite opinion of Raoul... Being that the book and muscial portrayed him as a whiney little nothing and the movie made him actually kinda cool, gotta love the phantom/raoul bondage scene, led to a great rpg :) ) 
I highly suggest reading the book and seeing the muscial in any event because the barricade is incredible. 
Poor Enjy. 
Sadly I share my birthday with the date of the barricade falling. 
Subsequently I'm always a little blue on my birthday and usually wear at least a red and black hair tie for it. (Sometimes red white and blue, depends on which is more accessible). 
Evita has a great revolution scene, thanks to che with some awesome music. (and the accent *swoon*) 
I'm beginning Raymond E Fiest's Daughter of the Empire tongiht. I own the book but never read it, it's apparently about a society mirroring feudal Japan so I'm snuggling in with it and popcorn later. 
I'm trying to remember hte name of a book, it's sci-fi main characters are human and a guy that's half cat and he kills himself at the end for saving his empire by killing his emperor, I wanna know if there's a sequel but I read the book in middle school. 
Eh..... 
Oh, requested the Final Destination book series and am eagerly awaiting. 
MORTAL KOMBAT!!!! next installation in Oct with 62 playable characters, create your own chara, MK racing WOOHOO!
(for me that's way more exciting then FFXII, sorry Kit) 

- On a work note : Pages: like 20, word count unknown but lots? -

My father is not the person to ever trust with money. Period.
First the little man got kicked out of my mother’s life years and years ago because she gave him the option of stopping messing around with their bank account (ie not paying the bills to instead go to the zoo (she worked he didn’t)). Bob chose to move out rather then straighten up. Span then to Bob’s life in his apartment working 2 jobs and making double what my mom got sooooooo he bought his truck. The truck. In 1999, a brand new orange 1999 ford ranger. Expensive and ridiculous. Since then he has never been on time with his payments and his insurance lapses on average every 7 months.
Anyway, then comes a mistake. Carla and I want a house and have no credit history we make a deal with bob for him to get the house and us to pay for everything and he basically pays rent. What do we find out three months ago when we were trying to buy a new house? Bob had stopped paying the mortgage on this one for five months, where’d the money go? That’s a really good question but everything we had went to keep this house, bye bye new house. Then….. More money went to bail him out of this credit bill and that thing.
I just spent the last three days with no phone because mysteriously the phone bill (the only home bill he pays because he needs massive long distance stuff and we don’t…) hadn’t been paid in three months. UGH! So the money we had for the repairs on Darshay went to a phone bill! Phone’s back and now we have to wait on fixing the car. I raided his room, he hasn’t paid the mortgage this month and he’s taken out a personal lone for like 16,000 dollars! That he has to pay back with about 200 a month.
THE MAN IS ALREADY AT -600 MOST MONTHS! We want to move out but here’s where being the kid has badness…
Bob’s going into Alheizmers. He’s not going to go into a home and he’s not bad enough to get anything mediacal against him. He’s doing things like forgetting to feed his cat, leaving the oven on for hours (gas oven). Putting on two pairs of pants. He has massive chest pains and smokes like a chimney.
If we move out probably in the next year were just going to have to move back to take care of him or move him out there.
I love my parents but he’s a menace to our finances and he keeps hitting us up for money.
UGH.
GRR.
I just wish he’d honestly sit down and talk with me about things when he has a problem meeting his bills, if he did it when it was still a 200 dollar bill we could handle it a lot better then when it’s 5 months late with interest and late fees.

I spent this weekend wallowing in fun-ness.... I did nothing at all interesting. Rented 2 videos and 2 ps2 games, ate pizza and vegged. (reasoning - Carla was siiiiick for the three day weekend.... ) 
Videos: 
Final Destination 3 and one that didn't work. The movie that didn't work was really funny, I don't remember the name, random 80s movie but it froze 5 times and finally would play no longer. Sooo... FD3. I have been an avid fan of the final Destination movies, I'm not sure why... I saw the first one a random halloween looking for scary movies and really liked Clear Rivers the character and the whole premise. ( which is precognitive vision leads to a girl stopping a bunch of people from doing something that will cause their deaths in a horrible and horrific * plane crash, car crash, roller coaster accident* and death has to go back and kill them in inventive, gory ways). This movie deviated from the massive gore of the previous two and actually had a bit of a logical plot, character reactions, and theories. I actually really liked it, we watched it 1 1/2 times playing around with the special feature of create your own movie which changes very little. But I did miss the morgue guy from the first two movies. Loved the circular logic. 
Games rented... Star Ocean although we never even opened it and Sims: Urbz in the City which was a lot of fun. The controls are a bit hard to master but Carla and I had fun. Pip Deek and Mew Bable (my girl and carla's scrawny little goth boy) were lovers by the fourth thing. 
Made homemade Chicken Kiev, it was delicious. 
If anyone likes potato pancakes - McCallisters (the people who make smiley fries) has freezer mini potato pancakes that taste incredible. 

We need the car fixed so we can go see The Quiet, which looks absolutly disturbing and we want to visit the new mall..... 
Hrm... Poor Darshay-Car... 

Gotta work now but I think I'll eat first and figure out what to make for dinner tonight when peoples get home.

I have a very very bad headache carried over from yesterday. Carla has been ooky yucky sneezy coughy for the last four days and I've been trying not to get it. Now I am suspecting that my headache is head congestion. It is pounding so badly that I have the whole darkness and cold washcloth thing going on. Still sound hurts. My eyes feel like they're swollen and gonna pop. YUCK. 

On the plus side my yucky solitutde today gave me an excuse to pick up the book I bought at... apprx 3:40 am last night while getting groceries: Jennifer Armintrout's debut novel The Turning. A lovely story I'm so impressed and she's only 4 years older then I am. It's a vampire novel, took me roughly 2-3 hours to read with this headache (379 pgs). 
I loved her characters (Ziggy <3 *cries*). And her theory on vampires growing a seven-chambered heart is worth reading. I'm not sure whether I like or dislike our lead swooning heroine but I'll deal it's like... Anita Blake (LKH) with less sex and stakes not guns. 
Her second novel Possession ( both books part of the Blood Ties series) should come out Feb. 2007. 
There's something about vampires that's beautiful, not just because usually they're hot undead guys/gals but just the throry of the body hungering for that horribly macabre sustanance that they have to lose their hummanity to feed... It's very angsty and dramatic. 
Running down my fav. vampires or vampire oriented stuff in my mind includes: The Lost Boys (film), an incredibly cheezy, odd, vaugely disturbing romp in tradional-esq vamp fun. (And LOTS of leather... bad hair... great music!) Anne Rice's books (Interview, Vamp Lestat, Q of Damned, Tale of a Bodythief, Memnoch, and Armand ONLY) Upon reading Merrick I was so... Saddened by the character developments on the series that I got rid of my copies of the books, packed away my collectors edition audio-cassettes in the orignal coffin box, packed up the movies, the t-shirts, and all other associations with the series and will never re-read them. It broke my heart. John Carpenter's stuff is great for gore, Miyu (which I discovered when I was like 5-6) along with D are gorgous in all their incarnations. The LKH (laurell k hamillton) stuff is fun, erotic, and complex. Kim Harrison's Vampires are kick ass and a bit scarey (sorry Ivy). I've always adored the orignal Dracula, painting a river of blood in a heart-wrenching love-story. 
Then their came Buffy... I love Buffy the Vampire Slayer, absolutly I own all the seasons 90% of the books, religously watched Angel... I'm a fan, truely and completly. As I just started Ms. Armintrout's series I expect I'll continue to follow it, and I'm currently reading Vampire Knight, a manga running serially in the Shoujo Beat's I'm so addicted too... 
I'm sure I'm missing some that I've adored but on the whole those are the ones that come to mind with this blinding pain ripping through my skull. 
The vampire mythos traces back to every country, every region had some fear of corpses rising, of blood drinking fiends, of things that hunted on humans. Even the werewolf and witch legends cross and co-mingle merging into one massive exploration of hummanity's driving almost universal fear of death. 
The vampire craze spun through my generation for a reason: the sudden worry about death stalking in the very blood that flows through our veins. Modern vampires in fiction seem to be a disease, and the victems seem to view it that way. Gone are the curses, now Lycanthropy is a killer virus tearing through the body and transforming it into the animal visage. The scientific writer explores the cellular damage and reconstruction to create these once mystical changes. Even zombies are reduced to chemical accents through scientific research. (uh... first example of that that rolls through my brain are the zombies in the Resident Evil movieverse) 
Where did the curses go? 
Poof I give you hunger.
Poof you will now hunt and destroy all you once loved. 
Poof live forever, isn't that what you wanted? Oh and enjoy the thirst that will torment you. 
Where is the slaughtering of people and cursing God to bring on these abominations? I think that society on a whole is taking the magic out of the monsters. Yes today we can come up with a hypothesis of how vampires could scientifically exist... 
That isn't the point. 
The Wolf ate Little Red and Gramndma because he was hungry. 
The Vampire exists in our past because the believe in magic existed in our past, not in science! 
Today we'd wonder if the Wolf had been trained to eat humans, because the attacks (exspecially a wolf in grandma drag attacking a little girl) would be considered unreasonable. Unfathomable. 
Vampires are unreasonable they are unfathomable. 
They are. 
Period. 
I think that thought needs to be revived, modern vampires lack the magic of their predessessors. Oh it's the living dead... what's it eat? brains -zombie... Oh no brains...? flesh-ghoul (which is WRONG! see sub point #1) nope? Sexy undead fiend with a thrist for blood, oh a vampire whoopty poo. Give it a stake and some holy water and send it on it's way to hte great emptiness of the void because vampires don't go to a normal afterlife because... They have no life. 
*sigh* It's so... boring. 
Gimme the old magic. Gimme the painful sorrow of the wolf-man, the romatic beauty of dracula.
Heck I settle for anything with a truer beautiful meaning anymore. 

(my sub-point.... GHOULS, were supposed to be originally hyena shapeshifters who dug up coffins and ate the remains. What the heck happened to that myth along the way?)

My car is sick and needs me to find it a part. I've located the part I think and now am going to be without wheels for another chunk of time. We're out of groceries.... Hating this. 
Ever lived on order in food? All that delievers in Xenia are pizza joints, oriental, and subs. 
*blah* I'm all eggrolled out. 
Starting the work day eagerly, I'm hoping to get at least through the first chapter today but have to spend some time figuring out some scientific stuff first. 
Will update later with todays results. <3

Hmmm... Watched the season premire of Bones *loves* So far I've never missed an episode. Gotta love anything that has cute vaugely nerdy creatures and David <3 
Also watched series premire of Justice. I liked it although I almost expected the guy she was having an affair with to have actually killed her, maybe CSI has just trained me to expect anything but what they are showing you. 
I've been watching Prisonbreak and Vanished. I'm liking Prisonbreak this season, didn't like it so much last season but also didn't watch it much last season. Vanished is oookay.... A bit odd. Yay for the Gale Howard, I'll watch it for him if nothing else, for awhile. 
(By watch I do actually mean have on whileI type.... ) 
EAGERLY awaiting HOUSE. I adore that man. *huggles the snarky doctor* 
Spent some time trying to pinpoint what exactly it is I like so much about certain horror movies today. (only movies not contemplating tv, mags, books, legends, etc) 
If I had to pinpoint my favorite horror movie it would have to be the third Nightmare on Elmstreet. Dream Warriors. the setting of a mental institution for teenagers combined with the Freddy goodness makes it very awesome. I adore the magic in his killings, anyone can hack, slash, and kill it takes a master to make the audiance enjoy the deaths. Something I haven't achieved yet, although I like to think my creativity and ingenuity in my characters deaths make up for not always showing the killings outright. 
Although Freddy goes back quite a ways. Of recent years I enjoy the Saw movies, with the third due to come out soon. I also quite enjoy the Hannibal Lecter works, (Young Hannibal is coming out next year so it can be considered rescent). 
I watched The Hills Have Eyes with Adam quite a while ago when it debuted but was pleasently surprised. The inbred cannibals have been making quite a stir lately. Cannibals in general I guess with Lecter coming back, the prequel to the Texas Chain Saw Massacre, The Descent (underground sub-species of hummaniods feeding on thrill seeking rock climbers), and also in the 2nd Wrong Turn, which is coming out soon (although has no eliza dushku...... :( ) 
I'm not sure why eating people is making it to the theaters lately.... It seems a little odd. In researching it it's a common theme though. Thousands of movies, books, and legends (as well as actual killers) seem to make it quite a trademark. 
I don't understand why I'm a little ew at the thought of ever incorporating a cannibal in one of my own stories but the thought of say a werewolf eating someone? I could write that, absolutly graphically and not disturb myself. It's the concious HUMAN descion I can't comprehend. 
Oh well. No Cannibals from me, no worries. 
I have Monsters. <3
Speaking of my stories, a few thousand today, lotsa notes. 
All in all a good day. Still have two and a half more hours of work to get in but mostly research I think. My fingers are cramping. 

Things are going well today, roughly 2000 words, three pages of notes, star cast and analysis. summary basics figured out. Woohoo. A few more hours and I should hit maybe another thousand or so words. Tired today. 
Two posts in one day I'm getting verbose.... 

Today is going slow. No update yesterday due to massive storms. I couldn't turn the computer on. Working Working... 
Got a few pages done yesterday, already quite a few today. Reading through Horror films, saw The Descent (5/5 rating on the blyssy-scale) on my anniversary (8/15). I can't believe they cut the last minute of the movie. Very annoyed. 
Also saw Pulse on the same date (back to back like 5 hours of movie-ness)... I was disappointed. Very dissapointed.(1/5 rating on the blyssy-scale)  
May watch the original but usually tend to shy away from those. Carla wants to go see The Grudge 2 when it comes out and I have mixed feelings... Basically yay from the SMG-ness but yikes for the creepiness. 

About 8 pages full today plus detailed map, creatures, new charas, political situations etc. 
Not much to say and less time to say it in. Car troubles are creating a havoc in our lives. :( 
It looks like we may need a new one. 
*sigh* 
No updates over the weekend unless something is bizarre. 
See ya Monday <3

Began what I'm tentativly calling Cycle of the Offering today. Currently around 1000 words in but I've only been typing for an hour. Worked on some of the notes before that. Woohoo! 
Listening to my playlist today and it's odd to hear Shania Twain merge into Wicked immediatly followe by Donovan... Hurrah for shuffle. 
Looking back over my notes I did about five pages of notes in the last two hours. 
Also made a wallpaper for my Kittin-Kins at work. 
Today is going rather slow. Kit, my beloved brindled kitty cat decided to jump off hte back of the couch and cut up my back a little so I'm in a bit of pain bent over my lap top right now. 
Just a short post now but I may update how much I've written later if I have time.

Today I have worked on ironing out the basic story and relationships with the main characters. Actual writing is beginning tomorrow now that the basic outline is completed. I’m very excited about this story and cannot wait to see as it unfolds. After 7 hours of research and note-taking along with 4 hand-written pages and many more internet based pages of notes. Very exciting.
There is a new mall opening tomorrow and I cannot wait to try out our newest theater with its piano bar and leather seats, it sounds like luxury. I’m a sucker for movies in general. My four-year anniversary was spent in a movie theater seeing horror flicks back to back. If it’s gory I’m there. That’s not to say that I don’t enjoy the lighter side of the media, after all I adore musicals, have a soft spot for sweet romances, thrill for a new epic fantasy, and feel a strange compulsion to see sports films.
But…
I seek out horror. I’ll grab the cheesiest sounding titles at the rental place up the street and eagerly devour blood drenched idiots like popcorn. With popcorn.
I was dedicated to the horror genre by my mother who as the childcare director on Okinawa air base in Japan led to me at age four standing in a cemetery banging on a coffin as a wagon approached and screaming my head off to tell the monsters that fresh meet was there.
At age 6 I played one of Freddy’s little girls in a haunted house on the base as well. I stood there in a pretty white first communion gown and sang that haunting song before laughing as Freddy chased the happy tourists down into Jason’s chainsaw.
BTW… I HATE haunted houses. Haunted hayrides. Haunted anything. They TERRIFY me.
Funny hunh?
Time worked today: 7 hours currently but it’ll be 10 before I go to bed. Future posts should have words listed too but I’m not counting the words in my notes for this.

Well this is like my 90th start on journal keeping but as I'm using this as part of my job to log hours I suppose I may actually keep this one. HI! I'm a writer, both of the scripting for various manga/comics and also in fiction. My main genres are supposed to be fantasy novels and horror short stories. I have just completed 8 short stories, (all horror) that I will soon be sending to magazines. My horror writing tries to combine the feeling of fear I feel with the influence of the J-horror movie craze. The feeling of the japanese horror seems to be much gritter, darker, and with a more realistic outcome then the american horror. Anyone who has witnessed the decline of american horror movies can see that plainly. I can watch my beloved Freddy slice and dice till the cows come home (moo) but The Grudge kept my lights on for a good week. (also of note since people have told me they didn't think it was that scary... try moving into a house with the attic opening and the same closests three days after seeing it.) 
Anyway, I try and scare with my horror. 
My fantasy... is a bit rougher. 
I have always been an avid reader. (I read at an estimated 300 pages a half hour fiction 200 pages a half hour non-fiction) I grew up with a Tolkien and Star Trek obsessed mother and father  who sadly have abadoned the fantasy realm for the nitty gritty political mysteries of writers like Tom Clancey  leaving me alone to witness a new era of fantasy writers. Most of the authors these days, that are selling anyway, JKR aside seem to be merging the horror/supernatural/fantasy angle. Laurell K Hamilton, Kim Harrison, Etc... They combing soft-core sex with smart mouthed heros pitted against the things that scared everyone as children. I love it. I love reading it. I can't write it. 
So I don't try. 
My fantasy is the epic, the story that crosses thousands of years to complete one prophesy. 
We'll see how it goes. 
I'm very excited to be starting this adventure with you.